DEBORAH WHITE
My testimony has a couple different parts to it.  I first accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior when I was a teenage.  I had an aunt and uncle who came to me one day sharing the gospel message of Jesus Christ.  I said the sinners' prayer asking forgiveness for all my sins.  I can remember feeling totally overwhelmed by such peace and love.  But soon after that my aunt and uncle were gone because they lived out-of-state.  I didn't really know where to go from there so I was soon back living a worldly lifestyle again of being carefree and partying.

As I think back, I can see that the Lord was still working in my life.  My husband and I went to a revival meeting one night.  At the end of the meeting the speaker gave an altar call asking if anyone wanted to invite the Lord into their lives.  I can remember feeling such a tug on my heart and I wanted to go to the altar so bad, but my husband didn't go so I didn't either.  After that my husband had gotten into some trouble with drugs and even ended up going to jail.  The Lord was still working on both of us.  We ended up going to church and we both dedicated our lives to the Lord.  It was awesome.  Over the next few years we went through times of following the Lord to not going to church at all.  Then, a crisis would come up and we would head back to church and then soon after we would be drifting away again and right back into our old lifestyle.

Then, in 1992, my whole world came crashing down.  My husband was killed in a motorcycle accident.  I was devastated.  Instead of running to the Lord, I chose to turn to the world for comfort.  I didn't really care a whole lot about dealing with life in general.  I was also very insecure and just wanted to be loved so I had a lot of empty relationships.  This went on for seven long years.  Then this destructive lifestyle I was living wasn't even satisfying me anymore.

But, just like before, the Lord had still not given up on me.  I just felt Him drawing me back to Him.  In September of 1999, I rededicated my life back to Him.  He totally delivered me from alcohol and all the other addictions I had.  Today, by eh grace of God, I'm still following Him.  I have learned a lot by my past mistakes especially to follow after God and not man.  Also, He never turns His back on us.  It is we who turn away from Him.  He is constantly standing there with outstretched arms waiting for us to come to Him.  To God be the glory forever and ever!!